Jim, my Husband died on October 17, 2012. On November 17th that same year, good friends and family and I took Jim to sea, scattering his ashes out in the Pacific Ocean on an amazingly beautiful morning. There was no planned ceremony we were friends and family who had gathered, one more time, to send him off in an intimate and loving ceremony, to wish him well.
when this anniversary arrives I set time aside to reflect and remember him, before cancer, before death. I treasure the moments I had with him. We were together for 21 years. The time was too short. The time with him was valuable. The time was fun, happy, loving and complete. I miss him.
This year, for the first time, I made it through Jim’s birthday (10/10) my birthday (10/16), and his death (10/17) with little sadness. I was staying with good friends in Boise and despite my insistence to not celebrate my birthday, we did anyway. I had a red velvet cupcake. Yummy. It helps to be with friends. It helps to feel loved and acknowledge that I am cared about and valued. It really helps to be with others.
Each year when I return to San Diego I make time to dip my feet in the Pacific Ocean and say hello to Jim. I know he is not out there, yet this is the last place I put him, so I go to greet him and visit. I think of him often. I still look upon our time together as a valued gift. I loved him for twenty-one years and I love him still. I know I can carry him forward into my future. He and our relationship has shaped who I am today and it will continue to shape who I am tomorrow.
All love is to be valued and not taken for granted. This love, this relationship-Jim and I-will never be taken for granted and it certainly was about love and understanding, laughter and friendship.
Happy Birthday to me. Happy Birthday to Jim. And hello to another year. I am still moving forward. Today I am grateful for Jim, a good twenty-one years, and the continuing love and support of so many good friends.
Happy happy Day Janet! And good happy reflections on Jim. Grief never goes away, it just softens in time. I’m glad it has for you. Take care snd enjoy your time with friends.❤️❤️
Thinking of you and your memories and you vast travels
That pain never leaves. You were Blessed and May those blessings continue through friends and family. Happy days wished for you! 🙏🍁🌹
Thanks for sharing. Very sweet!
Janet, I wasn’t completely aware of the importance of these dates in October when our paths crossed in Boise, Idaho. It has to be an intense time of year for you. What I remember was a time of celebration and love.
What a beautiful tribute to Jim, to you, to the relationship and to love. Thank you Janet and more love being sent your way…
Thank you for sharing. And please take care!