Frustration!!!!

The posting below is from last night. Since I made some decisions today I had thought about not posting it. How I feel when I travel is not always fraught with meaning or joy or awe, although these are a part of it too. Last night it was about the harder side of travel.

View from Meat Cove, Cape Breton

View from Meat Cove, Cape Breton

Frustration! Frustrating! Frustrate! I am all parts of this word tonight. I am anxious to make the “right” decisions even though I don’t know what the right decisions are. I think a glass of wine will help but not really. It does taste good, though.

Today I took my home on wheels to the Mercedes dealer in Halifax. Why? My emergency brake did not seem to be engaging and the service manager agreed. First I thought it would be an easy fix but instead I walked out with new new parking brake shoes. It appears that I must have been driving with my emergency brake on, somewhere in Cape Breton. The manager, Bruce said that even having it engaged a little would cause this wear. Sigh.

I feel like a bad Roadtrek owner tonight. I know I am not, but tonight I feel like I am a bad owner. How could that have happened? I reach the campground tonight and have to use my new brake for the first time as they put me on a hill and I am too tired to move it or think about what is next.

And…it is suppose to rain this weekend. I should enjoy it but I am tired of the rain. Right now I am near Halifax. I am considering not going into the city and heading to Prince Edward Island. I have enjoyed the small towns and quiet areas so much I am not sure I want to “do” Halifax.

I am whining tonight. Yes I am and I don’t care.

It is hard to travel full time or part time full time. Hopefully you get the gist of what I mean. By the time I get home I will have been gone a quarter of the year and a little bit more. That is a lot of time. I am weary and I am ready to head home.

Tomorrow I have to listen to my inner voice that will give me the right direction to go on. I am tired of listening to my inner voice as well. I am tired of decisions. Maybe Mom or Jim will appear in my dreams tonight and help me with direction.

My turn around date is August 10th. I know it is not iron clad yet I want to keep it as close to that date as possible. the honest truth is that I spent too much of my allotted time in Cape Breton. I enjoyed the quiet, the camping, the hiking the people and I am really balking at going into a tourist city and being around many people.

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Peggy’s Cove

Yesterday I went to a place called Peggy’s Cove. It is beautiful. The land around it is an UNESCO Heritage site. I loved the open area around the cove. The town of Peggy’s Cove was crazy. There were motor coaches, people, cars and more moving around in this little tiny town. I lasted about an hour and a half and hightailed it out of there. There were too many people, and too many cars. There was a point of time I would have been the tour manager on the front of those coaches. Craziness.

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Elsie checking out the Atlantic Ocean

Elsie is my one bright star tonight. I had to bring her into the Mercedes dealer while the RV was being worked on. She was very good, quiet in her carrier and patient. She continues to amaze me. And when I am feeling tired or down there she is, her sweet little self looking at me with trust and maybe cat caring in her eyes. Boy am I glad she is along.

And on another good note is the Mercedes dealer in Halifax. Bruce never even questioned whether they could fit me in, especially after telling him I was about to drive across the country. He told me, when I thanked him before I left that they try to help those who are traveling through as best they can. What a great attitude. My list of great Mercedes dealers keeps getting longer. They certainly focus on good customer service.

So dear readers, thank you for letting me vent. I certainly needed to. Life on the road, life at home, is not always cheerful and happy. Things do not always work right. The key here is to pick up and move on and enjoy the next moment that comes my way.

Tonight I think I will go to bed early and hope that my star will shine a bit brighter tomorrow.

Of course this won’t post until tomorrow as the wifi in the campground is down. Sigh.

Lavender Fields along the Cabot Trail

Lavender Fields along the Cabot Trail

This is the next day.

I have to tell you that sometime in the morning hours I awoke out of a dream and I was howling with laughter. I wish I could remember the dream, I know Jim was in it. I had to stifle my laughter a little. I didn’t want to wake up the campground.

When I got up this morning I knew I would skip Halifax. That will just have to be for another trip. Tonight I am in Pictou on the Northumberland straight and tomorrow I will ferry to Prince Edward Island. I believe I will be one or two days behind schedule and that is OK. I am still finding myself weary. Right now I am committing to every other night will be two nights of camping as I make my way west. I am looking forward to seeing the open spaces.

It is OK to have up and down days. Last night I could have howled in frustration, today much less so. I am more than ready to head for the west. A few more days and we will be on our way.

Today I am thankful for raw emotion.

 

 

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6 thoughts on “Frustration!!!!

  1. I’m happy you had a good dream, Janet … I was hoping a little visit from Jim or your Mom would arrive to help you face the new day. Your post reminded me of when I was checking out the Gulf Coast of Florida as a possible new place to live and didn’t realize I was there during Spring Break. The traffic everywhere was horrendous and I had paid the toll to head across to Sanibel Island when traffic stopped completely. As I sat there with cars in front and behind me as far as I could see, a song started on the radio with the chorus “turn the car around”. I laughed out loud and thanked my husband for the little reminder and I did just that once the traffic started moving again and I got off the bridge. Sometimes we need to listen to our inner voice and sometimes that voice is helped along by our missing guys looking out for us.

  2. Oh to hear that you are like the rest of us with your frustrations and how you handle it. I wish you only the best in your travels. I’m glad you have your sweet baby with you for love and affection. Enjoy the sights for all of us. God Bless You!

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