A little over a week ago I got the call from the surgery scheduling department. I am going for thyroid surgery, first case of the day, April 5. That sounds so easy to say. It gets put on my calendar. I still feel strongly this is the right thing to do and yet…..
I am nervous. As soon as I got the date, seriously, within twenty four hours, I was down with a cold. I have rarely been sick, despite healing from breast cancer, Jim’s death from cancer, selling the house and other such events that show up in my life. Yet the day after being given the date for this upcoming surgery I get sick. What the heck?
This is a big leap of faith. Faith that I have chosen the right course of action. Faith in myself. Faith in my doctors. Faith in the system. Faith in just about everything. Here is what I know, I feel strongly that this is the correct course of action. That has not wavered. I really like my surgeon. He is kind and strong and competent and treats me like an intelligent human being. This is a good thing. I also like my endocrinologist. He is another good man who has never said the words…”there is no need to worry”. I asked him not to ever say those words after I first met him and he never has. He is also knowledgable and competent and compassionate. I feel like we are a team.
I am getting my alternative healing team on board as well. I want to go into surgery as healthy and strong as I can be. It is time to book appointments for massages (Beth), acupuncture (Gayle) and myofascial release (Kelly). My background is in holistic health education-that is what my masters says-so I want a complete and whole team to help me go into surgery and heal in record time after surgery. It is a commitment I make so that I can be back into my life fully as soon as I can.
One recovers from colds. I am in the recovery phase. I am glad to be out and about and seeing the world at large, after lingering on the comfy chair in my friend Phyllis’s condo, watching Marvel Comic movies and sniffling and sleeping away five days of my life. Thor is still one of my all time favorites.
The good part is that Phyllis and I have a huge handle on our upcoming trip to Africa this summer. Whoo, planning takes time. Despite my sniffling and sneezing we are down to the last few reservations. Africa is on the radar. It certainly gives me something to look forward to. Now it is time to get down to reading about South Africa and Kenya. I need to learn Lightroom (I just subscribed). It is time to delve more into my camera and find more magic in the camera body and it’s lenses. Ooh and I get to go shopping.
Here is something I have learned about myself over the last many years. I am not fond of planning holidays. Jim always had to sit me down and firm up plans after days of putting it off. I love to travel. I am not a big fan of planning. And…I used to be a tour manager. What? How does that work? I don’t know. I actually enjoyed putting together a tour. The more I focused on the planning the smoother the tour went.
I tend to be lazy. My traveling in a mobile home, my RV, has given me the ability to decide at the last minute. What direction am I heading? Who or what do I want to see? Does that campground look good? How about a road into the National Forest or BLM? I find this lifestyle lends itself to last minute decisions.
For now, I am once again stationary in San Diego. I have a great support team of friends around me. Even though I am stubborn and think I can “do it on my own”, I know that I will reach out to all these people who have supported me without question over the past six years and longer. I am glad they are around. I am glad they understand my stubbornness and show up any way.
And then there are those of you who are far away or who I have never met. With all the support known and unknown, I am ready to walk forward to April 5. And..I will come out the other side ready to travel east.
Always Moving Forward.
Janet, April 5 will be a good day….. it is my birthday !!! Praying that all will go well and you can get back on the road soon. I enjoy your blogs so much because we cannot travel due to husbands many issues and dialysis. so, we look at our roadtrek and take it out for a drive occasionaly. So, carry on for those of us who cannot go. Let us know how you are doing.
Janet, may the force be with you as you deal with your thyroid situation. Life can be full of these surprises. I suspect you already know the drill of supporting your mind, body and spirit. Looking forward to your writings and your pictures of Africa. Good luck and be well.
Prayers and love your way, you are one of the strongest women I know and I have every confidence that all will go well and you will be on your way to Africa to take even more amazing photographs..God Speed
In our hearts and sending many positive thoughts your way… Keep us posted! Love, MJ and Jeff
Best wishes in a good surgery result and speedy healing. I too am looking forward to photos from Africa. I will be praying for you.
Blessings of perfect order and healing through your surgery and beyond. You are surrounded in love now and always.
You are one amazing chick we have the pleasure of knowing ! Know you are in our prayers and thoughts 😊. Sounds like you are in good hands with lots of thought and consideration. Please keep us posted !
It takes courage to move forward through thick and thin. You embody that to me. Go with the wind Janet. Those of us who admire you and your work from afar are cheering in the wings. Love, Johanne
It takes courage to move forward. You embody this to me. Know that those of us who admire you and your work from afar are collectively sending love, the best healer there is. Love, Johanne @ Redbirdrv